and i wonder where these dreams go, when the world gets in your way

Thursday, February 01, 2007

I felt it few years back and now its raring to come back again, not in the “statelessness” stage anymore. Im not sure about this but in any case, im very thankful for this one person who totally erased everything that I am feeling before this moment. Nothing is taking place so far but im hoping it would. As I said this isn’t a sure thing yet. Whatever happen, I would be very thankful because you gave me another shot to fall in love again. One thing’s for sure, im back on track…=)

jelo lost his dreams @ 2/01/2007 10:43:00 PM

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Tuesday, January 30, 2007

its been a while...

its almost a month since i had my work. It was kinda far from the field that i wanted but no regrets here. Its fun to learn new things with new sets of friends around me. Its difficult to blend from the first time but after some time i get used to them and know their personalities,well not that much though. On the other hand, since i had my training in computers, i become so curious everytime i see a computer, like i wana know their specifications, the components and the likes. haha...=) that's it for my first few weeks of work.
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jelo lost his dreams @ 1/30/2007 05:34:00 PM

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Sunday, December 10, 2006

im sori for this post,i suggest u dont read it, i just wana let it out of me right at this moment...

i dont wana break down anymore on something of the past. Although ive tried so many times, the pinch in my heart is always there. All through this years ive fought with the feelings i still have. But everytime i hear,see, and remember, im like a turtle without its shell, a baby without its mother, defenseless. In this situation my only refuge is this computer. Lord, pls.enlighten me.

I didnt have any regrets, there weren't. The mistake that ive made i can admit is that ive lied. I lied but never cheated. Very Very thin line between those two. yes, im moved by your statements, pls. understand my sentiments.Thanks...
"Mistakes are as serious as the results they cause!" (dr. house) . Ive made a mistake, and this is the serious result.

jelo lost his dreams @ 12/10/2006 12:27:00 AM

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Saturday, December 09, 2006

finally i passed all the interview and exams. but still not sure if im gonna be hired. sna pumasa sa training...=)
la maipost so kanta nlng. dedicated to someone... kht d mo alam...

LOVE YOU LATELY
by: daniel powter

You packed your last two bags. A taxi's 'round the bend.
You used to laugh out loud, But you can't remember when.
You lost your lies. It's like your moving out of time, And the whole word crumbles right beneath you.
So, I might've made a few mistakes, But that was back when you would smile,
And we would go everywhere, But we ain't been there for awhile.
And this I know, There's a place that we can go- A place where I can finally let you know.
'Cause I'm the one that loves you lately.
You and me, we got this great thing. We're the only one's that around,
We're the only one's that around this Babylon.
I hope you find whatever you've been lookin' for. Just remember where you're from and who you are,
'Cause there's a thousand lights that'll make you feel brand new, But if you ever lose your way, I'll leave one on for you.
'Cause I'm the one that loves you lately. You and me, we got this great thing.
So, come back and you sit down. Relax.
Everything's to see that you've come a long, long way,
And it's the place that you should be.

jelo lost his dreams @ 12/09/2006 07:55:00 PM

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Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Hbang nsa bhay ako ngaun, eto ang mga ngyyri...

1. hbang nanunuod ako ng tv dito sa sala, kitang kita ko ung mga dumadaan. Alam k na kung sa n ung ruta nila. kaya nagpabili ako ng anu tawag dun? ung madikit para di mkaalis ung daga. kaya bukas, pagkalagay ko nun, cguradong hula xa!
2. Nkkatawa, hehe, hbang nanunuod ulit ako ng tv dito sa sala ng gabi, my naririnig ako sa my ref namin na parang my kumakatok,shit! e d mdyo ntkot ako,(mdyo lng), tiningnan k kng san nanggagaling, to my surprise,hehe, my daga palang nashoot dun sa loob ng lalgyan ng tubig( ung ginagamit pag my dispenser,ung bottle). kawawa naman! hnggang ngaun andun parin!=)
3. Mgsisimba n kmi, momy ko pinaandar na ung kotse, d nya alam nandun pla c tiny(ung aso), narinig ko nlng umiiyak ng mlkas c tiny. my narinig din ako prang ng crack, nagulungan ung isang leg nya. ewan ko lng kng ung buto nya ung ngcrack o iba lng narinig ko. paglbas ko tnry ko himasin ung napilay, muntik n ko mkagat!bwct wla p namang anti-rabies un. d k nga alam kc my sugat ako dun sa muntik na mkgat o iba lng un. pero nkakaawa xa ngaun pramis! d n xa tumatahol, mhina na kmain.
4. Bumili ako ng season2 ng HOUSE. Mganda xa pramis! pnuorin nyo to. lalo na sa mga nagmmed. Dr. Gregory house, sarcastic self centered diagnostistician, very unorthodox pagsolve nya ng mga sakit.Ul love his sarcasm and metaphors. Im so obssesed to it ntapos ko in one day ang season 2 which has 24 episodes with 45 minutes viewing time each. Can't wait for the 3rd season,sa sept. pa start. so mga dec. pa ung dvd series nya. haay...
5.Im wating for the call of IBM coz they said they'll call and meralco... Can't wait to have a job and keep myself busy.Sometimes DOing nothing is harder than doing something.
6.Been watching tennis also. It's wimbledon season and i miss playing tennis. =)
7.Eating is the only way i can keep myself busy if there were nothing to do. I guess im getting HUGE. hehe. but not as huge as ***E. hehe,peace! gues hu..=)
8. Mkpgkwntuhan sa wla p a ring trabho. Bestfriend kmi ni joel... hehe... nuod tau Purefuds-SMB finals, ay Purefud-RB pla hehe...

Gs2 k lng mgpost eh, pgpasenxahan nyo na...=)
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My birthdays through and i wna thank my friends for remembering... Pretty not much a "just turned 21" guy party. We just ate ouside with my parents and relatives. Honestly, i enjoyed it, and missed it. ITs been a while since i spend my birthdays with them. Actually i cant remmber the last.
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jelo lost his dreams @ 7/05/2006 12:32:00 AM

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Wednesday, June 28, 2006

I had it when i was 17. A present from someone i barely knew. It was wrapped beautifully with ribbon on top. It was was beautiful. It was amazing. One problem. It doesn't fit. But i still stick it with me all the time knowing it would change and will soon fit. Soon enough, without hesitation, i threw it like it hasn't taught me a lot. I knew it was wrong. I pick it up again but its too late. It's broken.
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Few hours after my bday... i felt this loneliness inside... I dunno if its gonna be a "happy" day... hope it's not

jelo lost his dreams @ 6/28/2006 12:33:00 AM

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Wednesday, June 21, 2006

I wish we could erase the memories we want to vanish, just like scratching an eraser to a note or drawing written in pencils. But just like them, it could not be erased entirely. There would be always a piece of what we wrote, of what we draw. An evidence of what we've done. Depending on the pressure applied by the writer, there are those who draws or writes so hard even if erased we could notice what he or she had written or draw, there are also those who draws so lightly we could hardly notice what she've drawn. And there are those whoe writes with right kind of pressure. With those letters, drawings we've done, we should make sure of what type of pressure we do. But if you want to completely erase it? then burn it... Uncluckily, and sadly to those who wrote on stones and steels. A special kind of tretment is needed in it. and it's very rare and difficult.
what kind of writer are you?
Dont be too hard on yourself, believe that there would always be another chance and bear in mind that it will always be a better one than the first given to you. Live on! Snap back to reality, we don't always get what we want.
Soooo sad the life....hmp

jelo lost his dreams @ 6/21/2006 01:11:00 AM

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jelo lost his dreams @ 6/21/2006 01:11:00 AM

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