and i wonder where these dreams go, when the world gets in your way

Saturday, August 28, 2004

Another dream, wierd, it's the same as the first one. I'm confused if it has significance on my future... hmm... let me tell you...
I went to a bar alone, (i dont know exactly why id went there alone). After several hours of drinking, i found myself drunk!(hehe, gulo!), bsta nlasing ako... tas nun nung tumayo na ako, ung guy na una kong nakita, tnawag ko tas nkpag away ako... ung guy na un, bglang tumakbo. Then i saw another guy alone in his table...I furiously slam the steel chair behind him many times, and before i knew it, he was dead... I don't know what to do, i ran outside the bar and rode on my car... The end... i dont know what happened next... nagising na ako...
This dream is almost the same as the 1st, except iba ung gnamit kong pampatay...
yaiks! hehe... nu kya ibg sbhin nun???

jelo lost his dreams @ 8/28/2004 11:12:00 PM

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I’ve read again this book of mine in my high school days. this book is really for parents, la namang msma kung bashin db?... it's this book THE GOLDEN RULE no idea bout the author... it teaches 10 rules, ethics to be learned by every child or person... I’ll share one story I’ve read...
The measure of maturity is having someone to love... isn't it?
One late autumn afternoon, a mother put her five-year old son and his newborn baby sister on the front porch of their home to catch the last rays of the setting sun.
The little boy --- impressed with the big responsibility his mother had given him--- carefully guarded his tiny sister. The family dog--- a wonderful, fluffy old mutt--- stretched out contentedly and muzzled close to the children.
A neighbor, observing the tender scene, called out to the little boy, and asked, "What are you doing?"
Without hesitation, the little boy replied, "I am loving them."
Henry Stack Sullivan taught, " When the satisfaction of the security of another person becomes as significant a one's own, then love exists."

jelo lost his dreams @ 8/28/2004 11:05:00 PM

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Saturday, August 21, 2004

There was once this guy who is very
much in love with his girl...

This ROMANTIC GUY folded 1,000 pieces of paper cranes
as a gift to his girl...
Although, at that time he was just a small fry in his company,
his future doesn't seemed too bright,
they were very happy together...

Until one day,
his girl told him she was going to
Paris and will never come back.
She also told him that
she couldn't visualize
any future for the both of them,
so they went their own ways there and then...Heartbroken, the guy agreed.
But when he regains his confidence,
he worked hard day and night,
slogging his body and mind
just to make something out of him....

Finally with all these hard work and the help of friends,
this guy had set up his own company!
You never fail until you stop trying. One rainy day,
while this guy was driving,
he saw an elderly couple sharing an
umbrella the rain walking to some destination.
Even with the umbrella,
they were still drenched.
It didn't take him long to realize
those were his girl's parents...
With a heart in getting back at them,
he drove slowly beside the couple,
wanting them to spot him in his luxury sedan...

He wanted them to know that he wasn't the same anymore;
he had his own company, car, condo, etc.
He made it!

Before the guy can realize,
the couple was walking towards a cemetery,
and he got out of his car and followed...

and he saw his girl,
a photograph of her smiling sweetly as ever at him from her tombstone
and he saw his paper cranes beside her...

Her parents saw him.
He asks them why had this happened.
They explained,

she did not leave for France at all...
She was ill with cancer...

She had believed that he will make it someday,
but she did not want to be his obstacle!!...
therefore she had chosen to leave him.

Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to,
doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

She had wanted her parents to put his paper cranes beside her,
because, if the day comes when fate brings him to her again...
he can take some of those back with him..

Once you have loved,
you will always love...
For what's in your mind may escape
but what's in your heart will remain forever...

The guy just wept...

The worst way to miss someone
is to be sitting right beside them
knowing you can't have them.....
hope you would understand...

Find time to realize
that there is one person
who means so much to you,
for you might wake up one morning
losing that person
whom you thought meant nothing to you...

jelo lost his dreams @ 8/21/2004 12:46:00 PM

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Sunday, August 15, 2004

what a tiring week that was... good thing it's over... mostly, after prelims students like us (hmmm, coz some students still study right after). rest on weekends. But not me, here i am, burning my eyelashes (hehe) for the sake of our psych experiment report, researching through the net for so many hours. It's almost 3 and im still here. by the way she and gj were my companions in searching. whew! im exhausted. till here... cant think of any...nyt

jelo lost his dreams @ 8/15/2004 02:22:00 AM

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Friday, August 13, 2004

Psychiatric Hotline.
If you are obsessive-compulsive, please press 1 repeatedly.
If you are co-dependent, please ask someone to press 2.
If you have multiple personalities, please press 3, 4, 5, and 6.
If you are paranoid-delusional, we know who you are and what you want. Just stay on the line so we can trace the call.
If you are schizophrenic, listen carefully and a little voice will tell you which number to press.
If you are depressed, it doesn't matter which number you press. No one will answer.
If you are delusional and occasionally hallucinate, please be aware that the thing you are holding on the side of your head is alive and about to bite off your ear.

jelo lost his dreams @ 8/13/2004 10:51:00 PM

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