and i wonder where these dreams go, when the world gets in your way

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

When i was child, i know that destiny is when something happen to you without you expecting it, it just come. But now as i grow old, its meaning grew deeper inside, especially when i fall in love with this girl, who changed my life completely.
Honestly, i don't believe in destiny. If you want someone, somethings, you can get it by hardwork and dedication. Now, you're askin', why the hell am i writing this destiny thing here???
The answer, it's because, i am waiting for it.
As you know, i'm courting her, but now, not anymore. We decided to call it quits...for now... for several reasons which i don't wnt to post here anymore. Something personal.
I told her, we'll wait for 5 more years, if she hadn't commit herself yet to anyone and also me, it's a sign from above, that me and her are really destined to be together.
That will also be the time that i'll be believing in destiny.

As of now, were really in good terms. And what's good, were the best of friends.=) Nothing changed. Jus lyk what i've recieved in a text mesage, "you can have most important and loved person in lyf, without even owning it/her."

Eun... so sori, medyo disorganized ung thots. not well written. But anyweiz, i hope u enjoy what i've written

jelo lost his dreams @ 4/26/2005 10:20:00 PM

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Saturday, April 09, 2005

hi! once again, im writing my....uhmmm new post maybe but not new to you bloggers... guess what it's about love again...AGAIN??? eh gusto ko magpost wla naman ako mapost e di yan nlang...hehe... so...here it goes...

What i learned when im in love....
1. perseverance- i learned to try and try until i succeed...whaa may the diveine providence help me AMEN...
2. patience- i learned to wait not only to be in a relationship but also when meeting with them and i'll wait for several minutes, worse HOURS...Girls!tsktsk... but remember, patience is a virtue.
3. happiness- i learned to smile and laugh even at corny jokes they tell...hahaha (imagine epai's sarcastic laugh)
4. loyalty and fear combined- i learned to be loyal especially when she tells me "o ano mambababae ka pa?" katakot kaya, or if you fell asleep when you are textin each other, be afraid and prepared of the texts she sends to you when you wake up!...wag ka nlng gumcing!
5. death- seriously, im afraid of death and i know everyone too, but now, i'm not, and it's because of her. When she went away, it's as good as death for me...i experienced it...
6. do 2 things simultaneously- talk to celfone while reviewing, eating, drinking, watching, and even sleeping!hehe...
7. do some poems- nagging makata ako pag inspired...
8. cry- i learned to cry not because she hurts me. She thought me how to be a true man...
9. sacrifice- such a great thing i learned... sacrifice for everything not only for love but also for friendship, studies, time, family, and everything.
10. unselfish/selfless love- i love without asking for a return. i love with all my heart. So if i love you, be thankful! I love ya'll mah frends and especially YOU!...
11. to do the things i think i can't do- when im in love, i can do things i thought i can't do... you'll be surprised what i'll do for the sake of it.

...you're thinkin kami na, honestly ndi pa... but am w8n... kht anu pa sbhin nyo... eka nga love moves in mysterious ways...hehe...

...There's so much to say but less time i have...gotta sleep... well, im sori if it's mushy and all again......tnx very much for still visiting my blog...
***the you, her, she in the sentences you know who she is, and you know who you are...***
till here...jus tag if you've got something to say, ok?bye!

jelo lost his dreams @ 4/09/2005 01:46:00 AM

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