and i wonder where these dreams go, when the world gets in your way

Sunday, May 29, 2005

Warning: the contents of this contains depressive thought AGAIN, so if youve had enough of my pathetic posts, pls. dont read for your own sake. If you want to read it do so.

Its so difficult to live without her.

A day with her is so wonderful, but what sucks is that when Im with her time flies so fast i wouldnt even recognize it. On the other hand, a day, or worse, a life without her, is just like an eternity of suffering. Heart bleeding in pain, shouting, pleading for her to come back.

Sleepless nights are now haunting me. I still wait for her txt msgs.
Late at night, before I sleep, it became a routine that I put on my laptop, put off the lights, put on some mushy music, lie down, close my eyes, and lastly think of her, think of all the times, hoping that when I sleep, in my dreams she would appear. But unfortunate me, even in my dreams she doesn’t even want to see me. How pathetic that Im doin this ever since. What can I do? My fault, take the consequences.

I know in time, shell treat me as someone already. But Im afraid, that in that time, she found already someone wholl love her as much as I do, someone wholl not be dishonest with her.

As of ryt now, im jus waitng for the ryt time. The ball is not in my hands already to do the things I want to do.

Im stuck…

jelo lost his dreams @ 5/29/2005 01:55:00 AM

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