and i wonder where these dreams go, when the world gets in your way

Sunday, June 26, 2005

Hey...dont read this if you cant stand all the depressing things im posting.

It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday DAMN it!

Just when i thought that im over her
Just when i thought that i dont love her anymore
Just when i thought that i dont care about her anymore
Just when i thought that im now doin just fine

My thoughts arent reliable. I made a mistake. She has created such a great impact. Very obvious. For if not, i wouldnt be writing this anymore. Pls. dont blame me if i cant get over. I'm such a big loser. pathetic me.

I miss all the times we are together
I miss the crying and laughing
I miss the happy as well as sad moments
I miss the exchaging of sweet thoughts bout each other
I miss all the advices weve given each other
I miss the talks
I miss everything....as in everything....everything bout you...

But then again...one snap... *snap* im back to what we call "reality!"...

jelo lost his dreams @ 6/26/2005 12:13:00 AM

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Saturday, June 25, 2005

i really like mymp songs right now. i like her soothing voice that touches my heart and relaxes my mind everytime i hear their songs that makes me want to fall in love again, with her or with another. And another thing it reminds me of someone.... i love almost all of their songs but thse two is my favorite....

Tell Me Where It Hurts
Why is that sad look in your eyesWhy are you crying?Tell me now, tell me nowTell me, why you're feelin' this wayI hate to see you so down, oh baby!
Is it your heartOh, that's breakin' all in piecesMakin' you cryMakin' you feel blueIs there anything that I can do
[
CHORUS:]Why don't you tell me where it hurts now, babyAnd I'll do my best to make it betterYes, I'll do my best to make the tears all go awayJust tell me where it hurtsNow, tell meAnd I love you with a love so tenderOh and if you let me stayI'll love all of the hurt away

Where are all those tears coming fromWhy are they falling?somebody, somebody, somebody leave your heart in the cold
You just need somebody to hold on, baby(Give me a chance)To put back all the piecesTake hold of your heartMake it just like newThere's so many things that I can do [CHORUS]

Is it your heartOh, that's breakin' all in piecesMakin' you cryMakin' you feel blueIs there anything that I can do[CHORUS]

Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me babyTell me, tell me, tell me, tell meAnd I'll do my best to make it betterYes, I'll do my best to make the tears all go awayJust tell me where it hurtsNow, tell meAnd I love you with a love so tenderOh, and if you let me stayI'll love all of the hurt away

isa pa...
Dedicated to someone....=) thanx 4 everythin'

Especially For You
by M.Y.M.P.
album: Versions

Especially for you
I wanna let you know what I was
Going through
All the time we were apart I thought
Of you
You were in my heart
My love never changed
I still feel the same

Especially for you
I wanna tell you I was feeling that
Way too
And if dreams were wings, you
Know
I would have flown to you
To be where you are
No matter how far
And now that I’m next to you

No more dreaming about
Tomorrow
Forget the loneliness and the sorrow
I’ve got to say
It’s all because of you

CHORUS:
And now were back together,
Together
I wanna show you my heart is oh so true
And all the love I have is
Especially for you

Especially for you
I wanna tell you, you mean all the world to me
How I’m certain that our love was
Meant to be
You changed my life
You showed me the way
And now I’m next to you

I’ve waited long enough to find you
I wanna put all the hurt behind you
And I wanna bring out the love
Inside you, oh and

jelo lost his dreams @ 6/25/2005 11:04:00 PM

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Friday, June 17, 2005

last week was the first week of our classes though we only had 1 day of class, actually half day lang, this week. 2 subjects na ung napasukan namin. That was spanish 101, and scl3.
But before that, i want to tell what happened to me this week starting from mon.

MONDAY...sa apartment na ako.gabi na ko nkrating, nandun na sila rhenz, joel tska c mabelle. Kala ko ok na ako at wla na ko sa bhay namin,nkkasawa at wla kcng mgwa, un pla hindi...

TUESDAY...As usual, puyat, di nk2log ng maaga, nsanay na kcng puyat. aga kong nagicing, 6 gcng na pero 3 lng ako nk2log. Nakita ko si joel naka uniform! aba, wla namng pasok ah! sbi ko. Sbi nya di naman sure na wlng pasok, so pumasok xa sabi ko txt nya ko pag meron, tinext ko pa c sd kung papasok xa. nagtext si joel, sabi meron pero sarado pa ung rum. so ngmadali akong maligo at magbihis. Ust na ko in 15 min., nglalakad ako sa my hi skul, nakita ko si joel mabel at gj!(wud u belive mas maaga skin si gjeff!)hehe. so eun, sbi nila, thursday pasok! 1 pm! waaaah!!!! sarap ng 2log ko! bkt??!!! kmain kami jolibee. pagkauwi? tulog! maghapon....

WEDNESDAY...puyat nnman.ito ang pinaka boring na araw ko ngaung linggo! pgkgcng ko?wla c joel, wla na c rhenz. Wla akong kasama! tv,electric fan at laptop! (my treasured belongings) without them?panu na ko??? so un. maghapon, ako lng magisa knakausap ung sarili. Baliw nnman ako! Nung kinagabihan, si joel at gjeff naginuman. kami ni rhenz, kmain sa 7-11 bumili ako ng MILK para antukin! at effective!hehe un nlng ininum ko imbes na beer. my mggalit kc,hehe jke! so un another day passed.

THURSDAY... worst nightmare!!!! i woke up in heat! i woke up with heat heat starting to sorround our place. I saw the electric fan was off. I thot brown out lang, lumapit ako pra patayin. PAgkahawak ko,di ko pa napipihit ung switch. *spArk*KABOom# what the fu**k!!! sira ang electric fan!!!! sa dinami dami un pa! the night was horrible! our room was... well... "a lot like hell"!! i swear! you wudn't stand the heat! naubusan pa kami ng tubig. naligo ako, pagkalabas ko, aba!my pawis na ko! put*A! buti nlng inoffer ni gj electric fan nila, kya lng nung 12 pa! kpg mag aaircon na sila! patay! puyat nnman...

and lastly FRIDAY... no classes.... but there is a schedule for badminton with my friends... 5 lang kami! ung iba kasi dyan! nag backout bigla!!! (SD ung initials ng surname nya!) klala mo kung sino ka! hehe... so un from 10 till 4:30? badminton all day! it was fun but tiring... but not till this frend of myn spoiled the fun..bsta... un n un... and that was it....

ohhh...before i forgot, we learned a little bit of spanish...(xmpre spanish class un!)
it was fun! pero mhrap din...
HALO! como este ustad?=)
Buenos noche senorito/as!
Salud! Hasta luega!
Gracias mi amigo....=)

jelo lost his dreams @ 6/17/2005 09:10:00 PM

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Friday, June 03, 2005

haay...it's me again....
d ko alam....
sa sobrang dami ngyayari at mangyayari sa buhay ko ngaun, d ko alam kung bakit wala pa rin akong magawa...boring! very ironic huh...
pero nung mga nagdang araw...di ko rin alam, biglabigal nalang akong nawawala sa sarili ko... halimbawa lang eto...
***naliligo ako, nagshampoo na ako tas nagsabon tas nagpunas na ako... di ko alam pagkatapos ko mag punas ng katawan, inabot ko ung tabo, tas nagbuhos ako ako ulit...at take note, nagshampoo pa ulit ako...nalaman ko nalang nung habang nagshashampoo ako pangalawa na pla un! haaay...isa pa
*** inutusan ako pumunta ng bayan kaninang hapon. Paglabas ko ng bahay sumakay ako ng tricycle sabi ko "ma, Sta.Rita po", e di sumakay na ako. Nung nasa kalahati na ng biyahe, nun ko lng nlman bat ako dito papunta??? shit! kasi opposite way at npkalayo sa byan ng Sta.Rita. Papunta na ng manila un eh... e di pinabalik ko ung tricycle, masama pa, wla na akong pera pgditng ko sa bayan dhil naubos sa pamasahe! haaay....isa pa
***Nagtext si lele sakin kagabi ata, sabi nya, "jelo!laru daw tau ng gunbound sa TUES. sabi ni esdi!" sabi ko, cge ok lng! pgkasend ko, sbi ko panu un eh wla nmng computer shop dito samin. Tinawagan ko si sd, tinanong ko sabi ko sabay nlng kami mglaro. Tapos sabi ni sd, tange! Tues. kaya e june 7,enrolment natin!...waah! wla lng, natawa nlng ako. Onga pala enrolment sa tuesday. eun sabi ko, cge laru tau! tas binaba ko na. Tas nagtext rin pla si lele, ganun din cnabi sakin...waaahh!

nu na ngyri skin!hehe... prang nababalisa ako... di ko alm pinag gagagawa ko!...hnggang dito nlng!mgandang umaga!=)

jelo lost his dreams @ 6/03/2005 12:35:00 AM

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Another dream last night occured the night after that dramatic dream i post.
To tell you what,it's her again and it is the exact opposite of what i had dreamt of last last night. It was a happy situation but my dream last night was very vague i couldnt tell were we are and what other details are there.
It was just like a happy memories coming back to me.
I was with her, we were having fun, sweet nothings, conversations etc.
But i couldn't tell were it ended, it just ended blank, then i went back to sleep and wake up for a new day.
That's it.

jelo lost his dreams @ 6/03/2005 12:08:00 AM

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Thursday, June 02, 2005

I just had a dream last night, and again it’s weird. Actually most of my dreams are weird and fortunately all of those are not happening yet to me because all my recent dreams are about death, but this one is not about death, it’s about Nicole (at last!) but a sad story though =(.

Setting: a place maybe someone’s apartment or our’s and the apartment next door is of nicole’s family. I dunno wat’s the time but the sun there is setting and my dream lasts till evening.

Characters: joel and mabel, nicole’s dad, my aunt (father’s side), nicole and me

Plot:
Pumunta si Nicole sa apartment, cguro niyaya ko lng sya pumunta. Nandun din sila joel at mabel. We were talking and the door is open. Kita sa labas pag my dumaan. Then sabi ko sandali lng my kukunin ako sa likuran namin tpos nakita ko dumaan papa nya, tpos nakita sya dun. Tinawag sya tas narinig ko pinapagalitan sya. Kinabahan ako umalis ako dumaan ako sa likod. Tumakbo ako palayo sa apartment. Tas nung malayo na ako, naicip ko balikan si Nicole. Sabi ko kailngan nya tulong ko dun. Di ako dpat tumakbo, haharapin ko papa nya. Bumalik ako, nandun si Nicole sa apartment, umiiyak. Pumasok ako, di nagsasalita papa nya nung dumating ako pero halatang galit sya. Pagpasok ko nakita ko ung tita ko, di ko alam kung bkit sya nandun kasama sila di naman sila magkakilala, tapos, nagsalita tita ko at pinagalitan ako. Di ko na maalala kung anu cnsbi skin, bsta alm ko gngmitan nya ko ng mga terms sa LAW lawyer kasi. Napaiyak ako, humingi ako ng sori at pasensya sa papa nya. Kinausap ko papa nya convincing ako ung my kasalanan at wag na nya pgalitan si Nicole. Next scene e sumakay sila sa car di ko alm kung san pupunta.Di nagsasalita si Nicole. Nktingin lng sya sakin very sad face habang paalis sila then bigla sabi nya “hntyin m ko”.., hbang nkatayo ako sa lbas,

Pgktpos nun,ngcng n ko…hehe ang drama ng dream ko noh…pro di po ako nag iimbento ng dreams, yan po tlga ung npnaginipan ko. eun.The EnD…

REAction:
WAAAAAAAAhhhh what the……!! Nu ibig sbhin nun?? Kakaiba, ngaun lng ako ngka dream na very detailed tlga ung mga naalala ko. di tulad ng iba na very vague.

La lng, gs2 ko lng ishare cn somebody pls interpret?hehe.….mabasa mo man to. Panaginip lang yan…wla snang violent rxn from you….eun….

jelo lost his dreams @ 6/02/2005 01:27:00 PM

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jelo lost his dreams @ 6/02/2005 01:27:00 PM

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