and i wonder where these dreams go, when the world gets in your way

Thursday, July 28, 2005

When will we know if the one we like or love doesn't have anything for us anymore or should i say, no magic anymore...??? It really hurts when we know they dont love us anymore.
Feelings for someone would really be lost in a certain way or time if not complemented with the magic formula. But how funny sometimes, that even time wouldn't let us go away with this feelings and still hurts us no matter how hard we try to forget her/him by loving someone else. I still dont believe in fate. Destiny??nah!... But to show how we really feel even not seen ( even if they doesnt really care anymore), by them would really help a lot. It can ease the pain inside us. And for me, letting out bad feeling through writing, and letting everyone know how i feel can ease the burden lurking inside us. Like me, i still love her, but time wont permit and maybe she wont permit too. But who knows... somehow somewhere.

jelo lost his dreams @ 7/28/2005 11:18:00 PM

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Sunday, July 24, 2005

Haaay.... dito ako sa computer shop sa my apartment namin... la akong mgwa so nag internet nlng ako...
Nandito na ako nung saturday pa... Pmnta ako para sa thesis namin... pgkatpos... nkatulog ako...
Yun na ang simula ng pangungulila ko...
PAg gcing ko, sira ang celfone ko d tuloy ako mka text. Tapos, ung laptop nasa classmate ko nklimutan ko kunin kasi nkatulog nga ako. Biinuksan ko ung tv wlng mgndang plabas.
Haaay.... pumunta ko kila kyang, nglakad ako khit malayo... pgdating ko dun wla pla xa... so bumalik ako nglakad ulit ako... kumain ako magisa sa jolibee since wla akong ksma...
Si gjeff na kapitbahay k sa dorm wla rin... totally wla akong kasama... anu pa ba pde kong gawin??? 12 ata or 1 nag net ako... nkalimutan ko ung walet ko sa aprtment... agen, nglalakad nnmn ako mag isa. Pagbalik ko, ung kachat ko dpat umalis na, and worse nagalit xa kasi d ko xa nsbhan na nklimutan ko ung walet ko... ayan, kaisaisa kong ksma, nwala pa...
Ngaung sunday... wla pa rin akong ksma, except nung nag group session kami sa mga players. Pgktpos gunbound tas cnundo ako pumunta kami ng grinhills pra mamasyal... Wla lng... npagod lng ako...
Eto ako ngaun... nag iisa... naghahanap ng ksama... lhat ng mga ksama ko dati... my kasama na ngaun...=( d ko alam kung malulungkot ako o maiinis...
Pero majority ng nararamdaman ko ngaun, lungkot!
Ang hirap magisa... literally, and emotionally...
Sna my bulag na makakakita sakin(labo noh?), at smahan ako...
Ito, ngaun ko ulit nararamdaman ang pagkwala ng minamahal...
Sa mga single...oo, msaya tau dhil malaya tau kung anu gusto nating gawin...
Pero, sooner or later... Maiintindihan nyo rin ang sinasabi ko...
Mahirap mag isa...
Pamilya, kaibigan, at natatanging minamahal...
Mwala ang isa dyan... PAra sakin... kulang na ang buhay. Prang nwala ang mundo ko.
Haay... hirap noh... hirap makinig sa nagiisa...nagsusulat ng kung anu anu... wla namang katuturan... Pasenxa na...

jelo lost his dreams @ 7/24/2005 10:00:00 PM

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Sunday, July 17, 2005

eto po ung lyrics ng background song, lalng mapost so ito nlng muna sa ngaun...bbye...

RIGHT HERE WAITING
Oceans apart day after dayAnd I slowly go insaneI hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to neverHow can we say forever

Wherever you goWhatever you doI will be right here waiting for youWhatever it takesOr how my heart breaksI will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the timesThat I though would last somehowI hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh, can't you see it babyYou've got me goin' CrAzY

Wherever you goWhatever you doI will be right here waiting for youWhatever it takesOr how my heart breaksI will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can surviveThis romanceBut in the end if I'm with youI'll take the chanceOh, can't you see it babyYou've got me goin' cRaZyWherever you go

Whatever you doI will be right here waiting for youWhatever it takesOr how my heart breaksI will be right here waiting for you

jelo lost his dreams @ 7/17/2005 01:40:00 AM

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Thursday, July 14, 2005

As i enter the college life, everything was so confusing...it was so complicated.... wat make it complicated is the way i complicate the things happening to me... i mean, magnjifying or exagerating every event that took place just backfires to me... This gives me maybe my low-self esteem... Im always confused...

i hope everything wud be clear, now that im about to leave college life...(i hope so)

Low self esteem, leads to depression that causes me headaches, that leads to confusion... wahaha, confused na kau?

sowi... medyo malabo, i can't really say wat i want to say paero sana u get wat im tryin to say....

jelo lost his dreams @ 7/14/2005 11:02:00 PM

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Saturday, July 02, 2005

THE DAY YOU SAID GOODNIGHT
Hale

Take me as you are,
Push me off the roadthe sadness,
I need this time to be with you
I'm freezing in the sun;
I'm burning in the rain
The silence;
I'm screaming,
Calling out your name.
And i do reside in your light
Put out the fire with me and find
Yeah you'll lose the side of your circles
That's what i'll do if we say goodbye.
To be is all i gotta be
And all that i see
And all that i need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.
The calmness in your face
That i see through the night
The warmth of your light is pressing unto us
You didn't ask me why
I never would have known oblivion is falling down.
And i do reside in your hear
Put out the fire with me and find
Yeah you'll lose the side of your circles
That's what i'll do if we say goodbye.
To be is all i gotta be
And all that i see
And all that i need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.
If you could only know me like your prayers at night
Then everything between you and me will be all
Right.
To be is all i gotta be
And all that i see
And all that i need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.
She's already taken,
She's already taken
She's already taken me
She's already taken,
She's already taken
She's already taken me.
The day you said goodnight

jelo lost his dreams @ 7/02/2005 11:45:00 PM

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I celebrated my bday last june 28... And this time... it wus jus lyk a normal day for me, except people greeting me happy bdays... It is not usual for me to say that my bday is just a normal day for me cause i treated all my bdays a special day always... But i don't know what i feel this time...it's just like that everythings new in my life... Just like a continuos line that suddenly got broken and then started all over again in my bday this year...
Surely my life will change soon because i'll be graduating hopefully next year and take the path i want to take. I just hope and pray that i'll always make the right decisions.
Can't think of sensible thoughts..

jelo lost his dreams @ 7/02/2005 04:23:00 AM

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